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|  || 11/19/2009 || Quiet  Feeling contented with my grades. But I guess after the UT results are out I will be demoralize. Hmmm.. My blog have been soooo quiet. OR dull I could say. We are spoiled with the choices we have to update our life. Twitter, Facebook, Blogger, Tumblr, Wordpress etc etc. Our of the many, I am using 4 of them!! Beside what is there to tell, when the one you know to tell everything to already knows it. Somehow it doesnt really matter Now its more for leisure When I am bored or to kill time, I blog (: & I am missing my love like crazy!!!!! Hopefully he can come back by tomorrow!!  I do not have to care the way I look, cause thin i look best just the way I am.  When being silly together  When my hair smells like I haven't been bathing for days  We are most comfortable in each other arms  When you hold me tight and say 'I Love You' xoxo I am not alone
Love from within ♥ yf { 8:33 PM } || 11/17/2009 || No lappie  My sony vaio was sent for reservice, I got no laptop to use!!!! I am feeling No Life recently. I guess NO LIFE IS MY LIFE. Other than my boyfriend I ain't doing anything much. I guess evreyone else is pre occupied with their own life. Somehow I feel left behind. Am I the only one not moving on? Why does it seem like all my friends are drifting away. I hardly talk to them, we hardly spend time together. Everyone seems to have a new bestfriends. However those that I called closet friends are still the same few. Remebering how we promised and tell each other how much we will want each other in our life, how we will be friends forever. How nothing is going to drift us apart. But I guess.. some time life just is. Like I used to have a good firend, I feel and thought we are going to be best friend forever, but things turn out otherwise. And our friendship was sacrifices Some time I feel fear seeing the rateof people changing. At this point I am feeling, ALONE. I wish I have you here with me. Atleast I can feel peace in my mind even thou it's just for awhile. I just need to feel better for a while. So than I can proceed whatever is coming.... xoxo The only thing that will never change, is constanly changing Love from within ♥ yf { 11:06 PM } || 11/07/2009 || Partner & Parents  We don't dare to make mistake in relationship, Cause we know, one wrong step, might be your last step. We can afford to make mistake when communicating with your parent, Cause we believe they will love us regardless what. We usually say 'Yes' to our partner, Because we are afraid, one 'No' will be the last word you say to him. We usually say 'No' to our parents. Because we know no matter what, they will never not talk to you. We always spend time with our boyfriend/gf, Worried that their feelings will change due to the shortage of meeting up. We always tell our parents, 'go out next time' Knowing we can afford to spend lesser time as their feelings for us will always be the same. We always tell our partner ' I love you' , Because we are thankful and appericate the love we share We hardly tell our parents 'I love you' Don't we apperciate the love they gave us since the day we are born? We know one day maybe our partner will leave us for some stupid reason, yet we gave them all the love we can possibily give. We know our parents will love us regardless what, Yet we don't shower them with love like we should. We can't afford to risk our relationship, but can we afford to risk our kinship? Partners are the one who will stop loving when us did something wrong to them, what we say to them & how much time we spend with them affects how much love they are going to give us. They will love us till the day the passion are gone Parents are the one who will love us no matter what we do to them, what we say to them or how little time we spend together. They will always love us till the day they are gone. They are the most important people in my life. They bring the best out of me xoxo Why Why Why? Love from within ♥ yf { 8:50 PM } || 11/06/2009 || WEEKEND  Somehow I am not very excited.. I have a list of things to do for this weekend. Study for Chem, Bio & Maths. Go trim my horrible look brows. Pack my messy room! Settle my new msn email (: * it's about time to ditch the gay email and all the weird people I have accepted* I am crazily missing my boyfriend. It seem like ages since I last saw him. ENDURE I have been acting cranky recently. ANNNDDDD I totally fuck my physics ut. I do not have a single question I know how to do!! Going to flunk for sure ! School have been good recently. Other than the UT, all the daily modules, the classmate have been good. One thing I hate the most is LIES. I do tell lies. But my lies does not harm or hurt anybody. Why do someone would want to hurt someone so badly? Sometime I really don't understand what have to world become? I wish to live in a better place With nicer people With less heartbreak, tears & lies. xoxo Love makes me grow stronger
Love from within ♥ yf { 9:10 PM } || 11/04/2009 || Another day  Another class's photo, Joa Jess & I totally crash it. Hahha. Secondary school is so much fun. When I still have an excuse to be stupid, act silly, fool around but now I have to be ready and responsible for whatever that is coming up in my life. Crying is no longer useful. Crying doesnt make my problem go away. Just reminding me , how screwed up my life is.... I am feeling so drained out. And I am replenishing with food. hahah Been eating alot!! SHIATZX I am not sure what to do about the upcoming ut. physcis, chem, bio and maths. Everyone of them is a killer. I have this urge to do something crazyy like bungee jump or as small as skipping ut. hahha But I am too balless to do it. So I am going to stay put. Study, school, eat, Ut, sleep, homework & tv. How wonderful my life has become xoxo If only i know what to do
Love from within ♥ yf { 9:30 AM } || 11/02/2009 || Thoughts  MONDAY BLUES Another start of the week, feeling so dreadful already. How can I wish for weekend when it's only monday? I have been feeling disturbed by myself lately. The nightmare and reality, seems no difference. I have been telling myself for ages 'I WANT TO GO ON DIET' But stilll......... till today, I ain't doing shit. I guess procrasinating is my forte. & I talk to 2 of my classmate today. Ernie & Sarah. And it strike me.... You know whenever ever you are attached. You want to do something for example: Tattoo. You will ask your bf for 'permission' That sort of stuff you know. Like when you are attached. Your Mom and Dad is no longer your guardian. ITS YOUR BOYFRIEND Be I guess it's mutual. Like if your love, wants to go club... Would he ask you or you parents? If you say no, even if his parent say yes. For my case, he wont go. Just an example. I guess without realizing.. When we are in love, we allow the other party to take charge of our life. Trusting them. Trusting yourself.  Am always missing you :) xoxo To love, is to trust. But you have to gain it, it doesn't come naturally.
Love from within ♥ yf { 6:17 PM } || 10/30/2009 || TGIF  My love is coming back later :) I am going to bathe and then wait for his return. I am feeling super cranky lately. School is making me bonker. The problems of each module are getting harder. And I have UT on Tuesday. In other words, I HAVE TO STUDY zzzz Alright, whining is so not going to help. Like I say and a promise to myself, I will strive for good grades.. SO GOOOD LUCK EVERYONE. xoxo Every move I make, it's a little nearer to sucess :) Love from within ♥ yf { 6:48 PM } || 10/29/2009 || Not right  Baby is off to field camp. I am feeling not right. Something is just not right. Recently I am feeling something important is missing in my life. I can't really figure out what it is. It just isn't right...... I am just wondering is my blog getting boring, or is it just me? xoxo Sometime.. I just have to stop thinking too much Love from within ♥ yf { 11:27 AM } || 10/26/2009 || School  Just wish that, my grades will still in this condition. Have never consider university in my life. But now, I am planning. I want to do well in my studies, more than ever :) xoxo WATCH ME Love from within ♥ yf { 3:16 PM } || 10/12/2009 || New goal! 2nd week of semester 2.
I have found a new goal. Nothing to do with study at all. Just my WANTS ! CAREBEARS! They are just so fucking cute! I know I ain't that kind of girly girls who always scream for soft toy. But I love carebare! They are super adorable :) And Mel & I love it. Hehhehe I guess we always do since primary school. Once Rach, Mel, Des & Xinde bought it for my birthday when I was in primary school.  I want to get a hugee FUNSHINE BEAR. I always favourite love-alot bear. But I think a huge funshine bear will be so much cuter. THIS IS MY GOAL  I want to throw away all my soft toy and replace it with carebears :D xoxo Carebears! |
