Somehow I am not very excited..

I have a list of things to do for this weekend.

Study for Chem, Bio & Maths.

Go trim my horrible look brows.

Pack my messy room!

Settle my new msn email (:

* it's about time to ditch the gay email and all the weird people I have accepted*

I am crazily missing my boyfriend.

It seem like ages since I last saw him.

ENDURE

I have been acting cranky recently.

ANNNDDDD I totally fuck my physics ut.

I do not have a single question I know how to do!!

Going to flunk for sure !

School have been good recently.

Other than the UT, all the daily modules,

the classmate have been good.

One thing I hate the most is LIES.

I do tell lies.

But my lies does not harm or hurt anybody.

Why do someone would want to hurt someone so badly?

Sometime I really don't understand what have to world become?

I wish to live in a better place

With nicer people

With less heartbreak, tears & lies.

xoxo

Love makes me grow stronger

Another class's photo, Joa Jess & I totally crash it.

Hahha.

Secondary school is so much fun.

When I still have an excuse to be stupid, act silly, fool around but now I have to be ready and responsible for whatever that is coming up in my life.

Crying is no longer useful.

Crying doesnt make my problem go away.

Just reminding me , how screwed up my life is....

I am feeling so drained out.

And I am replenishing with food.

hahah

Been eating alot!!

SHIATZX

I am not sure what to do about the upcoming ut.

physcis, chem, bio and maths.

Everyone of them is a killer.

I have this urge to do something crazyy

like bungee jump

or as small as skipping ut.

hahha

But I am too balless to do it.

So I am going to stay put.

Study, school, eat, Ut, sleep, homework & tv.

How wonderful my life has become

xoxo

If only i know what to do

Another start of the week, feeling so dreadful already.

How can I wish for weekend when it's only monday?

I have been feeling disturbed by myself lately.

The nightmare and reality, seems no difference.

I have been telling myself for ages

'I WANT TO GO ON DIET'

But stilll.........

till today, I ain't doing shit.

I guess procrasinating is my forte.

& I talk to 2 of my classmate today.

Ernie & Sarah.

And it strike me....

You know whenever ever you are attached.

You want to do something for example: Tattoo.

You will ask your bf for 'permission'

That sort of stuff you know.

Like when you are attached.

Your Mom and Dad is no longer your guardian.

Be I guess it's mutual.

Like if your love, wants to go club...

Would he ask you or you parents?

If you say no, even if his parent say yes.

For my case, he wont go.

Just an example.

I guess without realizing..

Am always missing you :)

xoxo

To love, is to trust.

But you have to gain it, it doesn't come naturally.

My love is coming back later :)

I am going to bathe and then wait for his return.

I am feeling super cranky lately.

School is making me bonker.
The problems of each module are getting harder.
And I have UT on Tuesday.
In other words, I HAVE TO STUDY zzzz


Alright, whining is so not going to help.

Like I say and a promise to myself,
I will strive for good grades..


SO GOOOD LUCK EVERYONE.

xoxo
Every move I make, it's a little nearer to sucess :)

Baby is off to field camp.

I am feeling not right.
Something is just not right.

Recently I am feeling something important is missing in my life.
I can't really figure out what it is.
It just isn't right......



I am just wondering is my blog getting boring,
or is it just me?


xoxo
Sometime.. I just have to stop thinking too much

Just wish that, my grades will still in this condition.

Have never consider university in my life.
But now, I am planning.

I want to do well in my studies, more than ever :)



xoxo
WATCH ME

2nd week of semester 2.

I have found a new goal.
Nothing to do with study at all.
Just my WANTS !

CAREBEARS!

They are just so fucking cute!




I know I ain't that kind of girly girls who always scream for soft toy.
But I love carebare! They are super adorable :)

And Mel & I love it. Hehhehe
I guess we always do since primary school.
Once Rach, Mel, Des & Xinde bought it for my birthday when I was in primary school.




I want to get a hugee FUNSHINE BEAR.

I always favourite love-alot bear.
But I think a huge funshine bear will be so much cuter.











THIS IS MY GOAL



I want to throw away all my soft toy and replace it with carebears :D



xoxo
Carebears!

FUCKING STUPID GIRL.
DON'T KNOW YOU ARE PLAIN DUMB OR WHAT.
BUT YOU ARE SERIOUSLY A PAIN IN MY ASS!

BANGS, NOT BANKS.

FUCKING FOOOOOL !

I KNOW YOU ARE DUMB,
BUT IS THERE ARE NEED TO PROVE TO ME I AM RIGHT?




New Semester New class New people New Enviorment.
Everything is feeling so fresh.

But I am feeling so not fresh!
I am feeling tired like crap everyday.
When I am asleep, I am damn fucking afraid someone will wake me up.
I am so afraid I wont be get sufficient sleep.

I am feeling CRAZY!

Thou I feel super tired everyday.
I am still having a hard time falling asleep fucking crap.

And school is kind of stressful for me now.
Things are getting harder.
And now I can't really crap in class.
So not use to it, I guess slowly I will.

Am still missing W47Q.
So not use to it.

Anyway I dyed and cut my hair recently :)



Before I dye my hair*

I am feeling a kick of being rebelious.
I have been super good recently.
Thou I am having my holidays, I HARDLY stay out late.

Just doing nothing special, interesting or amazing.

D.R.A.B!

I practically have no life only during weekend and trainings.
I hardly do anything. SERIOUSLY!


*While dying my hair...

My blog is feeling dead.
And it's getting boring.

WHAT IS THERE TO BE INTERESTING TO READ
WHEN MY LIFE IS SO FUCKING BORING.

THE INTERESTION OR I CAN SAY THINGS THAT PEOPLE
WILL WANT TO KNOW IS THINGS I AM NOT SUPPOSE TO POST.

YEA RIGHT FREEDOM OF SPEECH __



XOXO
Love Jas

He book in today.

After 6days with him, kinda forget he is serving his NS.

Anyway,

This 6 days is being love.

Have been spending alot of time with my love.

Thou the time we spend are simple,

the things we do are the usual.

But I feel just fine with it.

When I am awake, he is with me.

Thou we still bicker, LIKE ALWAYS.

But I feel more like his family.

And being around his family,

makes me with very comfortable too.

But kimnda guilty haven't been spending time with my own family.

So I guess I got to make it up to them.

Enough say,

this is a belated post,

when there is a mini girlies outting with my babes !

We do the usual,

Kfc, bubble tea, hougang mall,

buy chicken, walk around aimlessly,

laughed at passer by x:

make fun of others, teased each other.

And gather at my place.

Everything was nice and simple :)

We actually ask jess to meet up with us,

but sadly she couldn't make it.

When Joa they all were at my place.

I cant really put in words what we actually did.

I can say its all just super random to the max.

Joa and Eun.

They were pretty noisy,

but were super themself at my place.

And the start playing with my nail polish.

And Joa painted her nails with alot of colour.

Showing off her new nails colour.

She paint every one of it with different colour -.-

Just chilling,

Painting nails,

chit-chatting...

Eun's tiny little looking finger,

Doing nothing much,

just taking picture for memories sake.

We look kinda dark

and the picture colour is kinda off.

So we decided to on the light :)

Isnt it much better.

hahah

P.S While I was waiting for bus today with my boyfriend.

I saw my funny friend Eun.

And when we board the same bus,

she trying to say bye to my when I am not even going to alight.

Her head was being knock by the the bus's door.

Lol .

Afetr reading it,

it doesnt seem that funny.

But it was!

Atleast to me.

The girls messing with my nail polish haha

Double J.

Why didn't we settle our butts down?

I am not too sure.

And its the first time she really painted her nails that day.

hahahah

It's true friends come and go.

But these are the few that I have always been with.

Thou we will have dispute at times,

very different by personalities.

Still we compensate each other flaws.

It's good to know they will be there.

They might not always be by myside.

But when I need them.

I believe they will be :)

My friends.

Smile like its fun.

Smile like we are going to remember.

Joa's thigh look 2 tone.

I wonder its the picture or

is it because she went for a swim with her bf.

We try to do something really funny and really silly.

When they are around.

Silly = Fun

We always do weird things together.

We are actually dancing?! -.-

This is a scrn shot of the video.

Look really funny and lame!

Eun's classic expression.

I have tons of her expression looking off form in my laptop.

And I always have a good laugh upon seeing.

I am not very sure what they are trying to do.

HHAHAHA?!

We hang out at my place till its time to go

and it's time to go meet my boyfriend :)

It's a friday night that day.

hahah

I wonder how Mel & Eun get the same funny expression together.

And it's the same expression lol

Just taking more pictures...

You know, we girls like to do this.

SNAP SNAP SNAP & SNAP.

The snapping goes on..

And on...

I m trying to do a EUN kind of smile.

Wide smile tiny eyes.

Al mighties 4 !

Hahahaaa I blocked Melissa!

And Joa's smile look kinda scary to me.

haha

I don't know what I was thinking....

Okay..

I am ending the post here.

Going to watch other movie online or something.

I still feel as vexed as ever.

It's that kind of feeling,

I can't put it into words.

Something is really botherign me much,

but I can exactly get it off my chest.

And its actually disturbing and mind breaking.

I need a blance.

A stable peace in mind.

So I can sleep better in the night

xoxo

Stay strong.